Tuesday, March 13, 2007
emoness, is killing me.
sometimes i really don't understand myself. i know very well that i shouldn't be allowing myself to fall into the dark pit. yet, i keep seeing myself going towards that direction. i very much want to stop. but i just dunno what to do. history repeats itself. i don't want it to repeat itself.
cherishing is something that one will only learn when one starts losing something/someone. i think i was just being very selfish. and so self-centered to the point where i don't really care how other feels until something happens. and that will probably wake the selfish constance up to see what i've so much caused. i think what i need is a shell. to hide in and live my life in so that, whatever i do, will not cause any hurt to anyone. sometimes, i really envy tortoises and turtles. but then again, that will mean that i'm running away from the problems and refusing to find a solution to it.
oh god, help.
if i've been boring you, i'm so sorry. i just need an outlet to release.
omg. i'm feeling so emo these few days la. and it just gets worse by the day. the more i see and listen, the more i'm emotional.
haha. i'm just used to typing haha after every single line i say.
